Day of Judgement

I was having conflicts inside myself these few days be4 today. I guess everyone should/already know wats going to happen today. Today was the day the stpm result was released.

Still, I dint take leave for today just to take the result but i am going to take it during lunch hour and so i did it. When i was working and realised tat it was already 12pm, somehow i started to get nervous. One side of me was hoping that I will get 4 As and i started to get carried away but the reality pulled me back when the other side of me was thinking about the truth, it will be very hard to get 4As, at least for me. I know where is my level.

So at 12.30pm i quickly rushed back home to eat and drove to skul afterward. On the way to school, my heart was racing. Not like I saw a gorgeous girl on the way but again i was having conflicts. Like wat if i get a sucky result? Will I able to be enrolled into overseas uni?

And so I arrived around 12.50pm and walked to the hall to take my result. Saw my fellow friends there. My hand was shaking and when i signed and took the result slip, I dunno why. I opened it like i was playing poker, to reveal the result slowly. I was hoping there will be miracle but unfortunately there was none. In the end, I got BB+BB+, PA=B, Math=B+,Chem=B,Bio=B+ .For me, this is not good result, no offence , in case you are offended by thinking tat i am ignorant. Seriously I did not mean that. There is a standard for everyone including me, so i was disappointed with my result.

After some chit chat with Mr Lau, I resumed my work at 2pm and luckily my boss did not mind, phew. After i get to know some of my frens get better grades den me, the disappointment evolved into depressed. Yes, I was emo for like few hours. I know why my result is like this , it is due to my incompetent. I already know the fact tat i am not that kind of ppl who can just read the book willingly and consistently, I am just not tat kind of study type of person.

I am just ranting..

I just hope that i can get in uni and get the course tat i wanted to do.....