Depressed

Had my muet exam this morning and it was ended at 12.45pm according to my watch.

There were 3 tests, the reading test started at 8am until 9.30am, the writing test started from 10am until 11.30am and the listening test started from 12pm until 12.30pm.

For the reading test, i realised that i was very focus and concentrating, because i read the passages twice, maybe because this muet is very important for my future.

On the other hand, i screwed up the writting test, miserably. Dunno what happened to me, i just cant write much for question 2. I onli managed to write 2 pages with spacing, so i counted it as 1 page. Others had managed to write more than 2 pages without spacing and i am damn depressed, seriously. There goes my band 6..... and i hopefully can score band 5.

Somehow i successfully surpressed my depression because i had another test, the last test. I cant afford to screw up this test as well. So, i tried to concentrate and focused on the radio all the time and luckily the volume of the radio is loud enough for me who was sitting alined with the radio.

The speaking test is on 12th may and i have to practice asap.

I think the best way to improve my essay is to write more often and since i am lazy to write with pen, i will try to write here. So from now onwards, i am going to write properly .

MUET

3 out of 4 tests for tomorow MUET exam which are listening, reading and writing. The test tat i am worrying is the writting part especially the 2nd question.

Hope tat i can get the result i want *cross fingers x infinity*

Class Trip

supposed to post this last tues but in the end i am lazy.

Went to Palace of Justice in PUtrajaya last tues and we can skip class especially bio cuz we are going to dissect rat again,haha.

so wrong,haha

tats all so far. We reached school around 1.30pm and ngam ngam to go back home,lol

朋友

朋友，是会在适当的时候说适当的话。 当朋友情绪在低潮时，身为朋友，会安慰他，安抚他那伤心的心灵，即使他所说的可能不是事实，直到他的情绪稳定后，才纠正他的错误。

每个人都需要人家的认同，尤其是低潮的时候。虽然他知道事情的发生他也有责任，不过此时他却真的需要朋友的认同，如果在这个时候朋友当他的面说出真相，说他也有错，这样只会使他更加低潮，结果弄巧反拙。

一个人，当他对朋友说出他心里话时，代表了他对朋友的信任，希望朋友能了解他的心情。当一个人在部落格写出他内心的话时，代表他想让别人知道和了解他当时的心情。没有人会接受当他最需要人家的支持的时候，反而被人指责，批评。

Announcement

1st of all, when i write in chinese, means i wan to minimize ppl for knowing wat i am writing,because i am writing my feelings.

wat i am trying to say is, no criticisms are allowed for those Chinese post!!i dint post my feelings for ppl to criticize them. If ppl wanna criticize, go somewhere else.Mark my words.

孤独

最近，我发觉自己对情绪的控制能力越来越差了，很容易被激怒。同时，我觉得没有人了解我，父母也一样。

今天，我的情绪不稳定，因为被弟弟的惰性给激怒。吩咐他做一件事他却找借口，就这样我本来的性情被破坏了，对所有的东西都很挑剔，很容易生气。这几年来我忍够了，每一次被他们或朋友激怒，却把情绪藏在心里。我真的希望有人能够了解我，开解我，可是却没一个会，包括父母。为什么每当你们的儿子生气时，却没有常识去了解我生气的原因，反而只会怪我乱乱发脾气。你可知道我有多辛苦吗？当我最需要你们的谅解时，你们却落井下石，我只好把已在口里的怨气硬生生地吞下。

我怕被我埋在心中的那一股不稳定的情绪已经开始倒数了，爆发只是迟早的事。

矛盾

再过几天，又有高六朋友生日了，大家决定要筹钱帮他们庆祝。说真的，现在的我却没了去年那一股热情，那股为朋友庆祝生日的热情。

三月八号是我的生日，不过就只有几位朋友庆祝我的生日。虽然没有蛋糕，不过他们却送了我礼物，我真得很高兴。高兴不是因为我收到礼物，而是他们还记得我的生日。当我收到礼物的那一刻，我真得很感动，虽然我的生日不幸与考试撞期，但是他们还是在考试完毕之后，将已准备好的礼物送了给我。

想起去年每当有同学生日时，我都毫不犹豫的出钱买礼物，算起来数目还不小。当我的生日即将来临时，我真得很期待，会有什么惊喜。过了一段时间，我真得很失望，彻底的失望。也许你们认为我很自私，不过我真的希望他们会为我庆生。

现在的我，真得不想再为他们出钱出感情，换来的却是冷漠。